Had a great night yesterday cause sakinah slept at my house . Congrats to her for getting into Nitec In Nursing . HAHA future EN (: We talked a lot of things & to my surprised I don't feel awkward with her after so long . I wish I could have more time with her . I miss doing crazy things together , I miss exploring the world with her , I miss those moments when I was just an innocent sab who had only her cousin to lead her into the real world of fun . NOT fun but experiences . I miss those moments a lot . KUTI2 VAVA Family . I miss playing at playground , I miss going to parkway parade & chilled at LJ's , just the four of us . I miss those moments when I was just a student & I don't have anything to worry about but just my studies & CCA :(

But now things changed . Day by day I am changing , changing to a person that I thought I would never be . I can't believe that I've learnt to hate someone , I've learnt that I should not be so nice to others when they treat me bad , I've learnt not to be friend with someone who had let me down when I am badly in need of strength . I am glad that I changed but at the same time I feel bad of hurting my loved ones around me . I am sorry that I could never be the old sab . But for those who really knows me well , you should know that no matter what sab won't never forget where she come from , never forget her loved ones no matter how busy she is , won't forget to stay loyal to everyone & never ever she'll forget the precious one & my nightmare for the rest of my life .

You won't understand me unless you were in my shoes . Yes , I am cheerful most of the times but it's scary to think someone like me go through a lot of shits in her 18 years of living . At times all I wanna do was to run away from everyone but it's IMPOSSIBLE .

cause I am SELF-LESS .