I don't wanna cry again cus on that particular night I was happy , happy being around with peoples who actually cares & love me & most importantly know how to really treasure me when I am still here . It took a lot of courage to read it till the last word . As I read .. tears rolled down my cheeks , my heart filled with sadness, anger once again . I cried but lucky for me there was particular someone who will be there for me-to calm me down no matter what , to lend me his/her shoulder to cry on .
That someone told me ; Everyone deserve to be forgiven . Maybe you can't forgive him/her now but sooner or later I know you will . It takes time to heal the pain .
I know it takes time to heal the pain . BUT never ever will I forget what you've put me through with , what you've said to me & esp your long-list of promises .
I may not forgive you now , I'll never know when I will forgive you but all I wanna do is to think about my future w/o having you in it . Seriously , I don't wish to mess up your life for a second time & I don't want you to mess up my life for a second time either .
There's a lot of things you have to look forward to . Even if you feel it's the end , actually it's not the END . It's just the beginning .... A beginning of a new journey with a new you (!)
You still have your family & friends to count on . You're not lonely anymore ...
Don't give up that easily ! Just change for the better & make your loved ones proud of you all over again. Don't ever get too high & forget yourself all over again . It will be wasted .
Even though , you're not forgiven yet . I still care from afar & here in my blog( it shows it all)
I am not a heartless person after all . I do still think of you at times , I can't deny the fact that I miss you . I just don't think you deserve to be forgiven now . My heart says so .. My mind too. Whatever it is , I am doing just great with my life right now . I love doing what I am doing right now with my lovely peoples w/o sins surrounding us . I choose to be back on this path , now here I am feeling a lot better . My pain , my sadness , the hurt ... They slowly turned into strength. The strength I need to walk this path. In time to come, it will give me the power to fulfill my destiny. After all that I have been through so far , emotions can bring a person down and wear a person out, but it can also give us the strength to serve as motivation :)
Imma not a perfect person , but at least I am trying my best to change for the better .
No one is perfect my dear , remember we all are " Beautifully Imperfect " .
I don't want to depend on anyone to make the scar go away , I wanna do it all by myself .
I hope everything is fine , I hope whatever prayers I have made will come true .
Whenever I say a prayer , I pray for you too . Nothing but the best .
If you've find someone that you really love like a " man who protect his lady "
go for it .. Love , Need & Treasure her like no one else did before :D
I will see you when I see you somewhere out there . If fate want us to bump into each other again . A simple " hello " , does not kill you right ? . Take care ~
Labels: I don't wish to keep you hanging, so here's the reply .
Sunflowy Girl
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