Thursday, September 30, 2010













Hearing out session under the stars make me feel a lot better . Thank you for hearing me out again , again & again whenever the date is near . Thank you for being HERE always . At first I thought I could just shut myself from everyone for this month & keep it all to myself but I didn't expect it's you again who has to hear me out every months. It's good to know she called me , I feel much more better . Now I believe that HATE do exist in my life. I know it's bad of me not to say a prayer for he/she for some purpose . Heck NO , I don't give a damn . Never will I say a prayer for a person I hate the most in my ENTIRE LIFE OF LIVING . NEVER EVER . It's gonna be one year soon , yes I can't let go . so what ? What do you care ? you don't I know so be it cause this is MY LIFE w/o you in it . Till today a lot of people say I have changed . Cause I have learnt to HATE a person . Somehow I think is good to hate a person like you . I will hate a person but never ever I will seek revenge cause that's not me anymore if I do that . You can say I am bad women for hating you but think again who are you to judge me where as you , yourself not perfect . You may be on top right now but one day , one particular day is your turn to be at the below . And when the day comes , you will know what I exactly felt when I need someone I love the most left me alone to survive this journey . Till today , I will never ever forget YOU the person who left me when I am at the lowest point in my life . I had tried to forgive you but maybe some things can't be forgiven easily like in a blink of an eye . It's 6am in the morning , I can't sleep . Coooooooooooool :D

P.s. Too much hatred for some people , it's time for some therapy yaw !
Pray.Pray.Pray

Sunflowy Girl
2:21 PM


" And now I have moved on by myself and maybe I won't forgive .
I will just forget you lived and I hope it hurts " -How it feels .

Sunflowy Girl
2:15 PM

Wednesday, September 29, 2010


I will pray everything will go smoothly for you tomorrow :)
Inform me immediately cause I know I will be worry like a mother has lost her child .
CALL ME ANYTIME WHEN YOU NEED ME YAW !

Sunflowy Girl
12:13 PM

Keep Holding On ♥

I just wanna remind you again that I will always be here when you need me the most . I am just a phone call away , a one bus ride away . Whatever shits you're going through right now , I will be here . Always be here . They does not know what's happening with your life except me , your family & some of your close friends , they can say what they wanna say but HEY look , I am here for you ! When I was at my lowest point in life you are the one who gave me hope right from the START . You were there always 24/7 right ? When I had my nightmares almost every nights you are there for me . So now stop stressing yourself any further !

Pick yourself up , Have some confidence & most importantly BELIEVE in yourself .
I fully understand if for this past few upcoming weeks you're feeling down , moody or what so ever . Remember , super-sab is HERE for you ! You'll always have my support & yes I will always be worry about you deng -_- .

FE&A♥

Sunflowy Girl
11:40 AM


Sunflowy Girl
11:14 AM

Monday, September 27, 2010
seriously speaking , I am tired of trying my freaking best to stay in your life already . Why do you need to said all those words ??! Why can't you even understand that I am always here if you in NEED of me . I got my own life too but when you're busy did I ever be so unreasonable not to understand you ? gosh , it's another heartbreaking for me .
Allah is testing me indeed . But I am so tired :'(

This is just too much to handle , lucky there's work tomorrow .
Why must you keep hurting me ? Why can't you just really TREASURE me like how I treasure & treat you ? Why people is being so FREAKING evil , mean & unfair now days to me ? :'(
I rather see you walk off from my life than keep on hurting me again & again .



Sunflowy Girl
9:43 AM


Sunflowy Girl
8:46 AM

LIVE.LOVE.LET GO. INDEED . ALWAYS .
In life we live to the fullest , we love , we hate & one point of time you just have to let go when you know what's best for you . You cried hard when you let go of something you truly love but at one point of time again you will realize that one person does not worth your tears so in the end you choose to walk away from her/his life . When you finally found your happiness , you thought it was just fine & perfect for you but again you encounter some sadness in you again , then you make a decision maybe that's the way life works everyday . it's like karma , it makes your head spin right round like how your daily life works . You rather play along , stay strong & try your best till you reach a point that you can't endure anymore then you'll let go of everything & make it all stop for once . At times loving someone secretly is better than let the person knows it all . Eventually you will fall in love again & start a new relationship right ? it only happens to people who really truly believe in love do EXIST . so tell me does TRUE love really exist ? -_-

The best advice is ; To think it carefully before you start any relationship . Ask yourself whether are you ready to go through up & downs like how roller coaster works with your lover . Ask yourself whether you intend to make it last or just a period of time before you make any confession . Cause you might not know that the other party might get hurt w/o you notice it .

P.s. there's no why , what or who about this post . I just feel like typing . Thank you :D

Sunflowy Girl
8:07 AM

p.s. I want you to be my companion when I want to watch this .

Sunflowy Girl
12:48 AM

For once , just freaking leave me alone . I don't want any hello , anything that's from you . I just want peace in my life w/o you in it . Yes , I don't want you to be in my life or part of my life . I don't want anything from you . be it friendship or what . Just accept the fact that I can't accept you after what had happened .
Not now , you should know why . So please I am begging you just go . Far Far away from me cause I don't wanna get hurt. It's a nightmare for me to even imagine about you or worst see you . Do you understand that ? That's final .

People say letting go of someone is hard but now not anymore . After yesterday night , I realize something that I will be okay & I will still be happy if some people decide to go away from my life . Cause I managed to let go of someone I love in the past . It's hard but I have done it anyway .
Or maybe I am used to people letting go of me .

Sunflowy Girl
12:28 AM

Friday, September 24, 2010
Dear Buddy♥; It's been a long time since I last blog about you . So here it goes ; lately you've been trying your very best to spend time with me . I am thankful for that :) I can see that you're trying very hard . Real hard . I know you're tired yet you waited for me to finished work . I know you're super-cold yet you gave up your sweater for me . I know you just wanna hit the sack yet you waited for me to fall asleep first cause you just want me to sleep first . I know at times you just wanna struggle me , tickle me till I cry or punch me right like real buddies do cause at times I irritated you what yet you endure with me . You may not be sweet like hady , may not be handsome like khairi , may not be cute like aliff but one THING you could do is to love & accept me for who I am like you says so * Bersyukur Alert *Plus ; they're skater boys & underground matrep . hahaha ! you're just you , you don't skate or whatever but there's something unique about you that attract me to you .You know that, you may hurt me a lot of times with some unseen things or unspoken words of yours but I still need you . I forgive you cause you deserve to be forgiven . I swear every time when we're apart, I miss you a lot. I appreciate everything you've done for me . Till I see you again dearest . Just the way you are ,♥


Sunflowy Girl
1:37 PM

I didn't know that you will get jealous easily . I didn't know that money matter to you too . I didn't know that you bury it all deep down your heart . Now I know , I will just keep it to myself .
ohhh well , I didn't know I have made a promise to you not to mentioned her in our conversation . I am sorry . There's a lot of things going through in my mind lately , I will tell you soon . I just don't know how to share with you .... I am scared .

Lately ; Selenge Sisters is all I need . w/o fail they will make fun of me , make me laugh non-stop till teardrops came out & saliva too , make piggy sounds & many more . Who could forget the day we had our course together for freaking 9 hours inside the air-con room -_- . hachooooooo !
Lucky there's ayu to gave me a packet of tissue , there's nisa to make fun of me non-stop . I repeat it again NON-STOP making fun of me . There's hidayah to always follow me to take biscuits & make a cup of tea/milo/coffee . Today worked with ayu is awesome . We exchanged stories like finally . hahaha been waiting to hear her stories cause she always hear mine. Whatever it is babe , you must be strong & confident :D

Alright , I miss them a lot . Damn it I hope famous amos don't open new outlet at Causeway Point or not I will be a loner sey :( . hahahaha ! Chill eh members , gua gurau jer minahreps ku !
I think in the end I will be left with wendy -_- ONLY & some other new staffs . sad work life .
I miss my minahrep underground a lot ! damn it you better COME back work at your original work place . Please , rindu gila sama lu uh babe . Butch pun asyik2 tanya pasal you . Telinga saya tak boleh tahan lagi ! hahaha !

Lastly ; I can't wait for the 30th :D


Sunflowy Girl
12:54 PM

Monday, September 13, 2010
today i miss you . I miss you little more each day .
I miss the old times a lot . A lot . But what can I do ? Now all I can do is to treasure every moments I have with you when we meet . Things changed , Timing is always suck for us since when I don't know . But I just wanna let you know I miss you so badly . & I need you to dial my number & tell me that it will be okay in the end cause we still have each other no matter what . I am sorry .......

Sunflowy Girl
12:05 PM

Sunday, September 12, 2010
♥ do remember " bersyukur " . That word will make you stronger . I know at times I am such a nag especially when it comes to be thankful part but you're the one who teach me to be thankful with what I have now & had in the past . Right ? Maybe you've forgotten but I didn't .

So yeah I will not stop reminding you to be thankful especially about your hair . It's not that I am being unsupportive or what so ever but your hair will grow back my dear . Even people w/o hair is thankful to god cause god give them a chance to live life to the fullest when they still can ;)

I love the way you are be it in the past or few days , months & years to come .

Sunflowy Girl
12:53 PM

what a good day for me today -_- . At least I spend my morning with him♥, had our breakfast & off to work in the afternoon . It is still raya , 3rd day of raya but I had to work . MUST work .
I totally forgotten that we had office orders to do until I called her . hahahaha !
I was expecting that when I arrived at work the atmosphere is like super dead boring but I was wrong . There's so much things to do , baking cookies non-stop . Adjusting those ribbons made me feel so bored . I don't know why but ribbons & me does not suit at all . But guess what ? My kind-hearted executive do a " TO DO LIST " for us . Each of us MUST tie 600 ribbons in two months time . I was like what the hell to wendy just now . I know wendy LOVE seeing me tie-ing up all those ribbons -_- . CONFIRM my one will be so horrible one , but who care there's already a deadline stated . So I will do it willingly & sincerely even though I hate to tie ribbons . I admit. But I won't give up yet , there's more to learn & there's more of me in actions ;)

Work today was indeed FUN :DD Wendy saw my selenge-ness face to face for the very first time. I banged my head on the wall & she laughed out loud . Seriously it hurt but it's funny . All thanks to those RED-ANTS who attacked my boxes . Sigh*
I reheat cookies but I forgot that I reheat them already so I almost reheat it again until wendy stopped me from doing it . I forgotten where I put my drink whereas the bottle was right in front of my eye & again wendy told me & she laughed again . Lastly , I forgot that I have packed 5 packs of cookies & I thought I short of one pack of cookies -_- . Seriously , I am out of words of describing myself for today . But I had so much fun today for being so SELENGE ^_^ .
It's been a long time I had not been like this okay people ? ;)

I guess too much of rendang & lauk pauk & cold drinks made me high ! hahahaha so high until I knocked myself on the wall accidentally -_- .
that's all for now ~



Sunflowy Girl
12:26 PM


Sunflowy Girl
12:25 PM

Thursday, September 9, 2010
Currently chatting with zhu , woot woot today raya ! I just read her blog . wth -_-
Rashid will come cause ada SAYA orang singapura noh :p
I miss him cause he is my cousin not blah blah blah feelings . itu cerita sudah basi !
But who can forget the night when he followed us where ever we go & when his sister tegur me about my baju kurung . hahahahaha ! Who could forget her teeth ? Zhu you very bad sey , eh if last year she is pretty I bet this year she will be prettier . I always love raya esp first day of raya cause of FAMILY BONDING TIME :D
huhuhu babies aunty ina can't wait to see you , can't wait to cam-whore too . It's been so long that I didn't use my camera . Ive changed , I am not the sab who loves to take pictures & videos every single day . Things changed . hahahaha every single day this thought of being 18 this year will make me giggle somehow. 18 -_- . Time to grow up , think like an adult be a lady like . No more shirts huh no more jeans . hahaahahaha ! what the tootz .

One last thing ; I do miss my childhood friends a lot . Abdillah , Atiqah & syakir .
I admit luh , I miss them . I miss disturbing them . Never ever could I forget those sweet & bitter memories we made together . Why must you moved away dude ? Or not today I can get to see you already . you see me , I see you ... I miss you & the good old times together .Hope to bump into you again , soon ;)

Okay I am off now ♥. & baby I can't stop thinking about you . I will love you forever & ever and that's for sure .

Sunflowy Girl
9:38 PM


he cut his hair till that short , he dislike it a lot . But i love it , he looks so ganteng & most importantly KEMAS noh ! I miss you , I miss your smile , I miss your laughter , I miss your chubby face , I miss your smell .... I just miss you dude . hahahaha ! Tomorrow eat as much as you want , I won't stop you . But please don't drink too much of cold drinks . Do bear it in mind . Yes , I will be worry . If you're scared that I might be thin in months to come then I have fear that you might have health problem of drinking too much of cold & sweet drinks :p Fair mah ! Can't wait to exchange stories with you tomorrow night .
miss you pom !

Sunflowy Girl
1:25 PM

tiada salam tapi ada ucapan darimu , tida pesan tiada ingatan .
Suasana penuh dengan keriangan , ku teringat pada seseorang .
Walaupun kamu jauh dimata tapi sentiasa dekat dihati . Ku tidak akan lupakan mu , mahu juga kenangan kami. Ku cuba maafkan mu pada hari ini tapi ku gagal lagi . Insyallah hari itu akan tiba . Maafkan ku jikaku tidak membalas balik tetapi hatiku masih diubati .
Dan aku tak kan lupa tarikh 2 dan juga 7 .

Berbahagia lah kamu pada esok pagi , berbahagia sepanjang hayatmu tanpaku disisimu lagi , ku ikhlas bila ku menyuruh kamu merasa kebahagian tanpaku .

SELAMAT HARI RAYA :DDD


Sunflowy Girl
1:09 PM

well today is the 9th , it's one of the date that will never be forgotten . or the 7th .
I can't wait to surprise her with the gift that I bought for her . hehehehe ! Sesungguhnya saya sweet sangat pada awak sorang sayang saya lebih okay ? ;)
I had a great time at bazaar today . Hunting for foods non-stop esp my keropok liko :DD
Awesome time with the gengs too . hehehehe ! Pape rahsia , hush hush eh antara kita noh !

so yeah I miss buddy-love . Lately we both have been so busy that we don't have time for each other . I am busy with work whereas he is busy with plans , nonstop plans but in the end it's alright for us . Cause we know we will get to see each other soon & at least everyday we updated each other . We're thankful . I hope to get to see you soon dearest :)

I love it when you miss MORE , you miss me like this " rindu gile babi hutan kena tembak senapang " ??? hahaha ! I am glad you hear me out today . Thank for making my night of malam raya a memorable one . Damn , I miss you bing betul :(


Sunflowy Girl
12:48 PM

Tuesday, September 7, 2010
☻ ♥ ☻
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☑ Taken♥ ❒Single


HAHAHAH COOOOOOOOL :D

Sunflowy Girl
1:46 PM

I wish I could share everything with you . Those feelings I keep inside my heart .
I know I have a choice in everything I do . At times I feel like hurting you like how you hurt me but again I can't. I failed to do so . At times I wish I could be like her but again it's too late . Things changed . I have changed . Lately I dare not say what's in my heart & mind yes that's the truth , I rather keep quiet . Maybe I need time to open up about my feelings cause I fear my words might hurt you. I guess it's time for me to tell someone the truth . I need her , I need her badly . I need her to give me the strength . yes I need to confide in her . It's time not to hide everything to myself .

I miss those times when we sat on our favorite bench at a park or at the beach . I still remember those times you cried for me , you said if you have the chance you would save me . I still remember the FIRST kiss you gave me . I still remember those times we just sat down & have heart to heart talks . Overall who could forget the confession . Damn , I need her .

Sunflowy Girl
11:23 AM

Saturday, September 4, 2010
Dia menguji tahap kesabaran ku bila ku terserempak dengan musuhku .
Dia menguji ku kerana dia tahu aku adalah insan yang tabah . Aku cuba maafkan dirinya tapi aku gagal sekali lagi . Tapi aku tak akan putus harapan . Aku akan cuba sedaya upayaku untuk memaafkan insan itu dengan seikhlas hatiku . Insyallah :)

Sunflowy Girl
9:40 AM

it feels good to spend time with your loved ones esp with your beloved family & relatives .
it feels like the bond will always be there even though each of us is busy with our daily routines yet we will try our very best to find time together & catch up things with each other . For the past two days , I spend my two days off with my beloved ZHU :D
I got to see my RUSYAI-DINA , my aunts&uncles & of course my cousins . I swear it feels good .
But I lack of one thing that is my late grandparents love . Well like zanna said she missed nenek a lot so do I . When I saw her photo in the living room , flashbacks starts . I still remember when mom scolded nenek not to kiss me mouth to mouth when I was a little kid back then . I still remember the night she passed away . I still remember how she looks like on her last day . I still remember the dream that I had the day after she passed away . who could forget you nek ? not me not even zanna . And of course our late Tok ibrahim . Who could forget your smiles ? I still remember even when you don't have anymore teeth you still wanna smiled . I still remember the last kiss I gave it to you . I still remember those times when I cried for you , when I really need your guidance . I wish you were here , to guide me too . To make me & zanna believe that marriage is a beautiful thing after all .

I will never forget that your love for me & zanna was extraordinary . You will always loved us equally. I swear I miss you both . As I am typing this I hope you both are beside me , hugging me tightly . All I need is to cry right now , I feel so down . I am sorry to let you down nek . I am so sorry for my past mistakes . Right now all I could do is to treasure my one & only emak(grandma) , but still its different cause in her eyes she will always love my little brother & kak nana more .

So everyone out there , always remember to CHERISH & LOVE your grandparents before they're gone esp your FAVORITE grandparents :D

Sunflowy Girl
8:51 AM

Thursday, September 2, 2010



Kak dayah , this video is for you . teehee ! saya tahu saya sweet , saya dengar kata-kata kakak dan taat pada janji saya . Walaupun penat saya sanggup pergi ke Youtube hanya untuk mendengar lagu ini ♥ . Insyallah maplek for sure ;) . Thank you once again for the present & thanks to kak ayu & nisa for the lovely , delicious cake !

Sunflowy Girl
2:00 PM

Iftar with Famous Amos Family was ; cooooooool♥ (!)










Sunflowy Girl
1:42 PM


simpang bedok . mad jack . movie . nad's crib . home sweet home by 1 plus in the morning.
Received Ripcurl bag . BIG spongebob . 18 helium balloons . Chocolate fully loade with chocs cream huh . Card . Necklace . Last but not least unforgettable memories that we shared & made together :D
Thank you girls , thank you for making it happened . Love you girls .










Sunflowy Girl
12:09 PM

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