Beautifully Imperfect Sunflower

Day by day , work life is getting on my nerves & everyone . Right ? Especially to the girls . *sigh*

Now , everyone is confused . Don't know who to trust , to confide in & so on . Seriously , I am tired . After one another problem . I guess girls it's time for us to follow the flow & don't trust anyone at there . Now I am left with kak dayah , nisa & ayu to trust on , ohh yeah buddy ; Ashraf .

Indeed I was disappointed with her but life has to move on no matter what . I still have to communicate with her no matter what as we work under the same manager . It takes time to forgive her , to talk to her in a normal way like how I used to . It's okay I won't hold any grudges towards you , or have any murderous intent . hehehe !

I miss my selenge sisters badly , I miss working with them a lot . I miss working at paragon , working with ayu , nisa & ashraf . I admit I still do think of my sister love ; RARA . hahaha !

Wow I REALLY MISS THOSE TIMES SEY ! :(

Lucky for us , we still can communicate with each other no matter where we are working at .

Love you all ~

Sunflowy Girl
10:44 PM

OM NOM NOM NOM !

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Sunflowy Girl
9:30 PM

the season is back . suck a lot . Lucky for me best friend is here for me to encourage me all over again . Seriously , thank you b . THANK YOU for making me smile , for hearing to all my problems , for lending me your shoulder to cry on . I know you miss the girls , me too :( . Once I recover I will sent you 4 a text message regarding our outing . hehehee !

I can't wait to go on a date with you B , yeah I promise just the two of us ONLY .

I can't to go on a date with you N too , I promise I won't bring satu kampung . We shop till we drop dead only the two of us SOON .

Thank you once again B , love you till my last breath (:

Sunflowy Girl
8:11 PM

we may piss with each other a lot of times , we may in a silent mode for countless times .
But you were all I need after all . Hehe . I don't want " M " , I don't " A " but I want "U" :D
That's all I need , I need you . I will see you again in my dreams tonight , hopefully no more nightmare for me today .

Sunflowy Girl
7:23 AM

At times you should take the initiative .

I am a girl even though at times my attitude is like a boy .
I am sorry for making you feel pissed off regarding ______ . I didn't mean to , I was joking . But seriously I don't want it to happened . Doa2 tak luh .. Jauh kan . Insyallah (:
I enjoyed today , I hope to enjoy more with you the next time I see you . LY !

For now I got nothing to update , nothing else to say .
Byeeee !

Sunflowy Girl
7:07 AM

we're young , we run free .
Stay up late , we don't sleep .
Got our friends , got the night .
We'll Be Alright :D

Imma putting my problems on the shelf , yes it's not worth my tears .
After one another of tests from Allah , I feel much stronger than before .
I am not gonna let you ruin my cheerful attitude , seriously not worth it & my time .
What I know now is , tonight I am gonna sleep & wake up tmrw with a smile on my face .

Selamat Berpuasa yer zhu & to myself tmrw :)
Seeya at night zhu !

Sunflowy Girl
11:18 AM

I need the big hug from my girlfriends so badly . I need a warm , tight & long HUGGGGGGGGG ever from you 1 2 3 4 :(

Nadrah , I know you gonna miss me but I got no other choice but have to move . Seriously I know how you felt , I am sad too . But I promise you our lepak place will FOREVER be at there cause that place holds a lot of our memories etc ; meetings , fights , happy moments , crying moments & so on . Who will forget that place ? I will never forget that I made a promise at there about you&me . Nab is our witness .

You know you girls can still meet me , I am not far nor near I am just a bus ride away jer kan my lovely girls ? No matter what happened , you 1 2 34 still holds a special place in my heart .
We may drifted apart but we can't deny that we still think about each other right ? ;)

I can't wait to see you on the 22nd girls & of course 24th .
&
our next outing plans will be on ___________ .
I will text you girls individually , love you !

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Sunflowy Girl
10:59 AM

* Hady & Ashraf love to do this to each other , wink wink "

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Sunflowy Girl
11:27 AM

I am holding on to it , I will not stop fighting (:

Sunflowy Girl
12:11 PM

Tonight , I don't expect any answer from you when I sent you those messages . But to my surprise , you replied me with meaningful words that I didn't expect at all . Cause I know right from the start you would not know what to reply or say to me back . I don't blame you at all , I understand you . That meaningful words made me smile so widely tonight.

I don't care what they say or think .
I don't care if they say you're not the one for me .
I don't care at all cause what I care the most is YOU .
Believe me when I said I accept you for who you are , Trust me .
Please stop having doubts about me , that's all .
I love being around you because you never ever judge me about myself .
Till today , you are here for me :D

" Semua hamba Allah tidak sempurna , terpulang pada pilihan sendiri jika mereka mahu pilih jalan yang betul "

Labels: miss you bodoh . umm.uh.lol

Sunflowy Girl
10:36 AM

Om nom nom nom , never fails to make me laugh (:

Sunflowy Girl
1:38 AM

I know you miss me , I know right from the start .

I know you miss me , I know when we went to our separate ways you miss me like no words can describe your feelings towards me .

I know you miss me , I know when you missing me is different from you miss your friends .

I know you miss me , even when our eye meets .

I know you miss me , I miss you too . But I know you miss more , you always did .

When you miss me more , I can't stop missing you . so how ? (:

Till we meet again in our dream tonight , be it bitter or sweet dream I still wanna see you .

Love you ~

Sunflowy Girl
10:14 AM

Serious aku love kau ; MOOOOO !
Tapi kan , aku love kau yer matair lebih uh camne ? so aku post ni untuk dia .
Biarkan dia tahu kau ni ehem ehem sey ngn aku . hahaha ! :)

Labels: dok maner sey kau ?

Sunflowy Girl
1:34 AM

someone told me this , someone that I thought will never define- what is a real man .
someone that makae me stronger each day , someone that I will never forget till my last breath .
You told me what is a " REAL MAN " really are , till now I did not forget your meaningful words .

A real man would not be irresponsible , reckless . A real man would not let his lady suffer from any kind of pains & hardship. A real man would not do that .so tell me what's a " real man " all about ?

A real man protects his lady . A man must uphold the values of love , respect , dignity and righteousness. And remember love is more than a feeling (:
I will never forget this , never ever . You told me once , I will remember it forever&always .

Labels: who can forget you ? No one can .

Sunflowy Girl
10:48 PM

Few days left & I will bid goodbye to this place . A goodbye that I will never forget , cause it's not sincere at all . Cause in very first place I don't wish to move . A place filled with sweet&bitter memories that is hard to forget . Very hard . But no matter what mom&dad signed the papers already . * Sigh * New home , New environment ... Hopefully I can adapt with all the new things esp my new room . Seriously , no words can describe how I am feeling right now . I love this place so much that now I have to learn to let go .... it's like letting go of someone you love so much all over again .

I will miss uncle next door , I will miss the family cat , I will miss the shop below , I will miss Festival Park , I will miss walking for few minutes just to meet my best girlfriends ever , I will miss the bye session at my kitchen window every night , most of all I will miss the " Secret Place " . But the thing is I tell myself I have to let go of the place too . it's a MUST (:

Bottom of the line is , I have to let go of this 2 places . At least try & learn to let go of it .

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Sunflowy Girl
9:59 PM

Heeren.Fish&Co.Cineleisure.She's out of my league.City Square Mall.Airport.Candy Empire.Gallery.TpJc.Walked home.Void deck.Home Sweet Home (:

The day when we both acted so selenge , the day you laughed out loud in cinema , the day I feel like totally a princess cause you follow my says . The day I ate so much , damn I feel so fat . Yes , I am paranoid about my weight , Idk since when but I need to take care of my body shape & weight & you don't have to cause I love the way you are . So chubby wibby , I LOIKEEEE !
The day when everything feels so perfect & peaceful . Whenever I am around you , I know I will be safe right ? teehee ~

You know when I was in the bus just now & a lot of my members surrounding me & w/o you by my side I feel scared . I feel like ______ . What I know , I need you . I need to feel safe . I want you to know that with you ; I have found myself back . Ive lost myself to someone that I thought deserve me , but I was wrong & now with you buddy I found myself back . I found myself laughing , smiling & most of all acting so selenge non-stop .

Seriously , I still can't believe that till now ... you're still here .
After what I told you , you're still here .
At times I wonder if this is real , it's good to be soooooooooo TRUE that someone like you will accept me for who I am . I am thankful & I don't expect anything from you :)

Next time ; BUFFET okay ? Let me satisfy myself with food only for a DAY !

Labels: thank you for every good and bad times (:

Sunflowy Girl
11:00 PM

One last thing to say over here ; seriously what kind of friend are you ? Damn girl , you're heartless . You can't even think with your own brain . I am disappointed in you , esp your attitude . You got the guts to put the blame to another party whereas you were the one who is JEALOUS of me ! Seriously if you're unhappy with me of what I get every month you can come clean to me & talk things out right ? If you're freaking mad with me over money , I can just give you the 4 letter words right in front of your face . Cause you don't deserve me at all . You don't even deserve my kindness , my words , my love ANYMORE . You hurt me deeply , so deep that this wound in my heart will never heal even if you come up to me beg for forgiveness . I DON'T GIVE A FUCK ! YES YOU MADE ME HATE YOU !I won't pity you anymore & I won't ask you to cover for me. I am sick of this two-faced thingy . Lucky for me , I did not share & tell you everything :) I did not know you are another " PARROT " in Famous Amos . Interesting much . Good Job , now you've lost my Trust .You made me cried & still have the guts to asked me to quit my job so that you can REPLACE ME ? I WON'T let you win , NEVER ! I may be good to you but don't forget I can be mean to you if you start it first . I regret being good to you , I regret of having friend like you . Mostly , I regret trusting you in the first place .

If you want to have a lot of money at the end of the month , work more hours & days .
If you still unhappy , I welcome you to work at my outlet & my shifts . Then you will know what I feel & what's my responsibility over there . If you try already & still unhappy I guess you're a type of person who doesn't know the meaning of " BERSYUKUR "
Frankly speaking , MONEY can't last forever . MONEY can't buy happiness but now BECAUSE OF MONEY you've ruined our friendship . You're blinded by MONEY !For goodness sake think with your brain but not your butt . Did I ever tell you or anyone that I AM JEALOUS with your pay ? No , I DID NOT . you wanna know why ? Cause I am different . I am thankful with what I get & had right now in my work life . I did not even utter a word to my manager that I want my pay to be increase or complain to her that I want to be paid more as I work almost everyday . I AM SO UNLIKE YOU ! My manager said I deserve to get a increment even though I work for 8months plus , if you wanna know why or what ask her nicely & she will explain to you from A to Z .

Bottom of the line is , I am not gonna be so naive anymore to anyone or worst YOU . Like nadrah once told me that I am so naive that people can easily take advantage of me . Indeed I am naive , but now I know the real you & the truth is out .... I am not gonna let you have my trust ever again . I don't wish to see your damn face at all . Yes , I hate you !
I know I have changed a lot , in the past I used to be a forgiving person but after he left I have learned that at point of time you can't even forgive that person who has hurt you deeply .

The one who should be jealous of me or us it should be ASHRAF not the other way round.
I am speechless , the person whom I trust with my all my heart hurt me this bad .

" Harapkan pagar , pagar makan padi "

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Sunflowy Girl
11:02 AM

Today is a very tiring day for me . 3 days straight full shifts . But lucky for me there's someone who would make me hyper at night . You're the best, PP ! . Teeheee ~ Chilled with shaz for awhile during break time , god damn shaz is doing modeling . Ai sey man , nur must be so kembang uh !I yawned for countless time today , I am so dead tired & my body is aching but the moment I reached home I don't feel sleepy . Shit already like perangai burung hantu uh ! -_-

Well , I can't wait for tmrw . Will be meeting my fav buddy ! & gonna chill out together . Teehee !& thurs religious session again . Yay finally I can see my fav ZHU . I miss her like ALOT . Aku serious eh pat ni , aku tak world :)

& I MISS MY GIRLFRIENDS ALREADY esp my other half . I hope you're alright , I know you need time that's why I am not gonna disturb you tonight baybeh ! So sad never get to hear your voice tonight & I am freaking worried about you . I still love you babe & always love you ... Remember when everything falls apart or when he decide to leave you , I AM HERE ! I am your other half remember ? (; Teehee !
Confessions made , will never be forgotten ~

& I LOVE YOU K PP :)

Sunflowy Girl
10:34 AM