Beautifully Imperfect Sunflower

WORK .

Work have been my choice since young . I made the choice to start working at a young age 14. And I never feel regret at all . From 14 till now , I have gained a lot of experiences , met different types of people , dealing & adapt with new environment , people & atmosphere . But FAMOUS AMOS is the best among all . ( cause I know how to be the real women there . know how to fight back , like finally ! ) Just kidding , who wants to fight like hooligans at work right ? (;

Now I have become a _______ . I don't even feel that my work responsibilities is lesser . Everyday the responsibilities keep adding on & sometimes I keep sighing cause I feel tired & I feel that I am old. But actually I am young . Try to put yourself in my shoes right now , imagine you're 19 & you've to take in charge , take care of your staffs(majority of them is the same age as you) , supervise them in what they do right or wrong , scold them if they deserve it , train them to be clean , neat & tidy & etc . Imagine if you get promoted & your status is a bit higher at work but you're only 19 ? Tell me what you feel ? Tell me if you think people will get jealous by your achievements ?

DOUBLE CONFIRM W/O ANY DOUBT , others will be jealous . And they will have many questions in their heads like " why her ? why not me ? " One thing for sure I never ask for anything like get higher pay , respect me because I am a ________ . I never ever dream about to become what I am today . Yes , at first when I received the letter I was shocked & sad at the same time . Cause I never want this position , I just wanted to be normal & a hardworking staff . That's all . But I left with no choice , now I have become a _____ & my job is to run to 2 places fyi ( it's tiring but fun ) , slowly I cherish every moments I work , appreciate my responsibilities given by her & now I have to admit I am thankful & lucky cause the bosses see a potential in me (; But I am not the type of person who will be so proud until forget myself , I actually didn't tell anyone except 2 persons at my work place what is my position cause later so many things will happen . HAHA !

But from what I see , I bet they know what is my position . but it does not matter .... I just want them to treat me the same . It's not that I can't go thru hard work . Hello , at work I am like a man behind the scenes & a women in front of the cashier . hees (; I have been thru a lot , I have what it takes to carry one carton of batter & walked around orchard w/o feeling shy anymore , I have been straight forward to my manager recently cause I hate the way she treated some of us with her biased attitude , I fought so many times with "w" for !year plus & now I am not scared of telling her what I really think , I am not scared of dealing with some people who have the matrep & minahrep attitude anymore .

I have changed . I am not a gangster , I have learnt to stand up for myself , to fight for my rights ,to be straightforward , to learn how to deal with some childish people , when it comes to serious matter .... I have learnt how to be serious . but at the end of all of this , there's a sorry . That part can never be change . Saying sorry does not mean I lose . And if some people don't like how I work or what is my attitude at work ... Please come forward & talk to me . (:

Partly why Famous Amos is the best because of the friends I had over there . They are awesome & I love them even if sometimes there's some people who just have to make me angry & sad . They're the ones who made my workplace lively ! That's all for now .

Have a great weekend ! (:

Sunflowy Girl
9:47 AM

I don't know why but I just feel like typing it here . You know in relationship there's always ups & downs moments right ? And so ... We seldom fight ( Ya allah jauhkan lah ) and when something small happened we just have to make it big . And sometimes when we fight I laughed , sometimes I miss quarreling with him . Yeah it's weird right to miss fighting with someone ? I finally understood why fights happened with your loved ones . HAHA is to attract the other party attention ( I'm not saying he's a attention seeker , but he needs me & I need him too. ) And sometimes fighting make people meet each other. ( It's the fact , cause it always happened in my friendship with my girls ) .

Sometimes I said he neglected me , sometimes I neglected him due to lack of sleep . sometimes he said I am bad , sometimes I said he is mean for saying that I am the bad one . sometimes I said I'm fat but he's fatter . sometimes we just need to have those little misunderstandings to make the bond we had stronger (;

He hates when I say " whatever " . But seriously when I care too much he complains & when I totally don' care & said WHATEVER he said " see , you don't care about me anymore ? :( " I guess I found me in him . I remember last time I used to be like that . HAHA ! The best part about him is he's a strong person who never give up easily & never look down on others even if the person is ugly , have low education & etc . And he always sayang-sayang his brothers no matter how many times he had been hurt , how many times they owe him $$$ & etc . He's a True Friend , really not lying . And when his brothers do something foolish , he would just say it out . I really admire him , a lot ! ( not because he's my bf ) . Most importantly he never ever compare me with anyone & he accept me for who I am . Seeya soon buddy (:

Sunflowy Girl
9:20 AM

ohh yeah to my one & only zhuzy . Happy Belated Birthday ! Seeya soon (:

hahaha I love you ! cheezy .

Sunflowy Girl
10:45 PM

THE BEST 3

Before I go to work , I would like to post this picture . Finally nur is 19 years old . She made me proud (: She excel very well in her studies & Im very happy for her . But she really need to buck up & hopefully that special someone will help her out. I may not be there for her always but she never complaint in anyways . She understand that Im busy at work , my role at work & so she never say anything hurtful to hurt me . She knows very well when & where to find me , hahaha Im just a call away & one bus ride away . And of course not to be forgotten my lovely nadrah & nabilah , they made me proud too in their job ! (: No matter how many times conflicts came up between nadrah & me , I'll never leave this friendship or walk away . Since secondary 1 till now ; They're still the ones . The irreplaceable girlfriends . Outsiders may npt understand this friendship we had . It's very complicated one but the love & the bond we had is very deep ;) .

Sunflowy Girl
10:26 PM