Beautifully Imperfect Sunflower

Today I met with my lovely girlfriends , we laughed & we ate ice-cream .
Today she made my day by telling me about him . Geeeeeez !
Today was another day I was hurt again , unexpected much .
But it's okay , I am partly to be blame .

Tonight the full moon was so beautiful , I wonder if you see it too .
I thought tonight will be a sweet dreams for me but it's not .
Nightmares surrounding me again .

I want you to know that I still need you no matter what , I treasure you .
But this time round when I say I need time , it's for real .
I need you to understand me now , understand me in & out .
I may be appear so freaking happy outside but I am still recovering ...
Like you say " when you need time , you will need space too " right ?

No , you are wrong . I just need time & I don't need space .
You still can text me from morning till night but no phone calls .
I am sorry but I have to do this & I am not gonna avoid you , I promise :)
No matter what , you're still a good soul & beautiful too . you deserve a chance .

& TAKE NOTE ; NO ONE IS PERFECT . HUMANS MAKES MISTAKES & LEARN FROM IT .
I hope next time , I won't get hurt again . May Allah bless me :)

Maybe about a month , I will be better . Don't worry I won't break down or what so ever.
When there's work , my mind will be so occupied . When there's her , I know I will be safe & secure . When there's you , I mati ! hehehe JOKING . For sure , I will miss you . You're a great & different companion I ever had . It's so true . When I said you're different , indeed you're so different . I will see you again next time huh , if god want us to bump into each other on Wednesday then it's settle . Fated ;) Take care while I am gone , don't worry I will eat as much as I can cause I don't wanna be so skinny later you run away . Then I'll have to chase after you for a second time with a different reason . BYEEEEEEEEEEEEE !

Labels: Ever wonder if I belong to her ? Pow Pow Pow

Sunflowy Girl
2:59 PM

Great I lost my star necklace :( . What a great day to start with by losing one of my favorite necklace . It's okay life has to go on no matter what . Woke up & I found out that I slept with a ZHU beside me . She has her bantal busuk with her 24 hours . Perangai busuk sey zhu :p
We planned to have a movie marathon ended up watching one of the dvds only with zhu & bro iman love . Yesterday cousin engagement at Sembawang was great , guess so .... Well me & zanna don't bother much as we're not close to them just that we can't resist the delicious foods . I know perangai-G right ? but it's okay you're still heavier :p

Work today was great , laughing & smiling like an idiot non-stop with wendy love . Doing closing alone sucks , bored to death . No deeva , No love , No her . Boring ! But still I managed to closed the shop , neat & tidy :) Off tomorrow , religious class at 2pm will be so boring as zhu can't tag along all thanks to bulan & at night meet up with my lovely girls . Like finally !
Then back to work for the next few days & great essay is done all thanks to her support & nags that I managed to pull it through :) THANK YOU BBY !

Looking forward for July & august , I admit that I am looking forward for this both months .
& last day of June too .
3 July - Out with girlfriends .
7 July - for me to know for you to find out . SURPRISE SURPRISE ! :)
9 July - I hope I could make things better . Hopefully .
17 18 19 20 July - will be so BUSY ttm . :( .
23 July - Important date ni . hahahaha k sab so mean ...
24 July - another engagement -_- . ( zhu & jb shakes head )
30 July - Holiday Lagi . Shiok yer !!!!

& August will be the month for all the Muslims to start their fasting . Great !

Hopefully , we could get to see each other again huh next time . ASAP .
Thank you for today , Thank you for admiring the full moon with me even though I smells of cookies . Teehee !

Labels: Super -Duper Happpy :D

Sunflowy Girl
12:17 PM

I MISS YOU , SIMPLE AS THAT .

Sunflowy Girl
9:11 AM

I don't want to see airplanes fly but I wanna see you fly :p
Macam Oink Oinks ! Tee hee ~

Sunflowy Girl
4:21 PM

Today was a day to remember & not be forgotten at all . It holds a lot of bitter sweet memories of us . The day when tears falls , happiness was shown , laughter was heard , misery was shared & most importantly we're ONE :)

Today , I have learned to let go one of my secrets to you . I still can't believe that you're not surprise at all . You're a true one indeed . I still can't believe I cried my lungs out & there were you again hearing me out & waited for me patiently for me to share with you stories .

When you said ; " It's okay , I am here to make you feel safe . I won't go anywhere " & when you told me " to truly love you , I have to accept your past , your present & also years to come". I am glad that Allah gave me a chance , I am glad that I found you my dear beautiful soul . Overall , I am thankful to Allah & to you too for everything . Well I don't have to spell it out here right ? As long as you know what I mean . tee hee ~

Just so you know I am very happy today . Thankful to you ... cause you listened to me with full of concentration to my stories , you wiped away my tears again , you gave me hope & you told me that It's okay cause this is life . Do you know that most of the time when I am with you I always laughed , smiled & seldom cry except when there's a SILENCE MOMENTS between us ? Idk but I feel happy being around you . I am glad that I found you so that you can lead me to the right path together, we will be at the right path as long as we believe that we can do it :)

I will to cherish you like how you cherish me , I will to spend more time with you like how you spend with me . - sab[R]ina love .

Labels: tee hee .. :)

Sunflowy Girl
3:27 PM

When I was in primary , secondary school & best still in ITE back then ... I love to write long essay , I love to write reports . I still remember I always stressed myself up when it comes to minute of meetings when my senior asked me to typed it out immediately . My dear nurrahaan will always edit my reports as she said it's too long , too much later when people read it .. they will get bored . Wth -_- . I miss her helping me , now I know how she feels when I am not with her anymore in the class to help her out write a report . I feel like giving up , I feel its so hard to start an essay . But in the end , I can't give up now or ever . I can't let my mom down again . If my essay is not chosen at least I know I have tried & at least I make my mom proud .

& at least they read my essay :) I love people reading my essay . teehee !
Okay I miss nurrahaan real bad . Need her but she needs him. Ahhh doi :(

Sunflowy Girl
10:33 AM

It's a beautiful day,my cellphone just rang . I pick it up to find that it's you
And your calling to say ...

I love you and I want you to know
When I'm with you I never want to go
When I'm with you I love you more each day
And that is all, I wanted to say

You make me smile .We talk for a while
I think to myself and I know how you feel
Cause I feel the same way
So I say, I say

I love you and I want you to know
When I'm with you I never want to go
When I'm with you I love you more each day
And that is all, I wanted to say

There's been something on my mind, oh ooh .I've been searching so long for something
I couldn't find
And there is something that I, need to confess

This is that I love you more than you could guess
That's why there's a YES to it yesterday night :)

- TiffanyAlvord-

Labels: love you cinta ....

Sunflowy Girl
10:16 PM

Labels: dugaan

Sunflowy Girl
9:36 PM

"It’s okay. It’s okay to want someone you can’t have. It’s okay to want something more. It’s okay to cry when you’re hurt, and it’s okay to stay mad at someone who hurt you. Believe it or not, it’s always going to be okay. That’s just how it works. Sometimes things don’t work out how you want them to, and most of the time, it seems like they never will. But eventually, everything is going to iron out some way or another. You just have to believe, keep your faith, and move on. (:"

Love you , Cinta !

Sunflowy Girl
11:29 PM

When we're kids , we share almost everything . Now when we're growing day by day , we try our very best to share everything except our soulmate :) Teehee ~

Well , I just want you to know that I really enjoyed the trip to Malacca with you & your family. I love sitting beside you & fall asleep together . I know I snored & I slept like an oink oink but that's me . I am lucky you did not kick me off the seat . I swear the TOUR GUIDE is on my nerve , oh wait on OUR nerve . Talked & talked till he can made us fall asleep peacefully . hehehe ! " KERBAUSSSS " . I love the talks we had in the bus , I love to know about your life & of course I want you to be part of my life too . That's why I always shared stories with you . I know I have been busy with work but I try my best to catch up things with you whenever I can . When you told me that you miss her , I miss her even more just that I don't know what to say to her . It's weird . ( SA )

By the way , it's okay if you or me don't have a boyfriend .
We've each other :)
Everything will be okay , no one dies if we don't have one but people won't just stop talking or jump into conclusions . Let them be , this is our life .
We've the rights to love whoever we want right ? Teehee , I LOIKEEE .

Don't let one guy ruin your dreams , don't make a guy your everything cause if you lose him one day ... you will lose everything . There's more in life than guys sayang there's girls :p
KIDDING !

Labels: * you look beautiful with the long hair bby :)

Sunflowy Girl
10:27 PM

Miss you so bad :(
COME BACK FAST !

Sunflowy Girl
11:20 AM

without you I feel a bit different . I miss you reminding me not to forget to eat & stop dieting for a day or what cause I am beautiful the way I am now . without you , I swear I don't feel any appetite to eat & so she was worried about me . Sweet of her to came down to town just to gave me epok-epok & just to checked whether I am okay . I am glad that I am there for her when he's gone & when you're gone for 4 days she is here with me all along till now . She fetched me from work along with Mr.B , we went home together & I make friend with his friend . She's nice :)
Rushed home , showered , came online just to see you . You look tired , shagged so do I . But still I am not gonna sleep cause I am gonna leave Singapore less than 2hours time & I can't wait to go for a holiday trip with my loved ones . It's been a long time since I have been on a holiday & I can't wait for December , I gonna FLY away ! Yes uh like finally I will gonna fly again in the air . hehe ! I wanna see , touch the snow !

Whatever it is , when we're apart form each other I miss you so bad . I know it's sounds crazy but its the truth . I will wait for your return , I will not give up not now or never ? :)
Teehee , I have a surprise for you when you're back ! This time round I am gonna plan for an outing for us alright ? It's my turn , I promise .

Specially update this blog for you , beautiful soul *
IMY.INY.ITY .

Labels: what are we ?

Sunflowy Girl
12:54 PM

MISS YOU :)

Sunflowy Girl
11:31 AM

Since you love babies so much , this is for you ! :D

If I accept the job offer , I bet I will get to see MORE babies
&
I am sure you will get to see a lot of pretty nurses " IF " you get that job you wanted :p .

Another surprise from behind , thank you ..

Labels: Now you're the reason why .... :)

Sunflowy Girl
10:19 AM

He says ; Why are you not online anymore ?
She says ; I am lazy , nothing interesting anymore .
He says ; I will be bringing my laptop when I am on my holiday trip with my family .
She says ; * with a bright , wide smile * I will online just for you then :)

4 days left till you're gone .
6 days left for me to enjoy with my loved ones at Malacca .
16 days left to Fossil love , Imma grab that beautiful watch !
Less than 30 days , I will be at a new environment :( :( :( .

* Specially For You *

Labels: Cause of you I blogged today only :) LY

Sunflowy Girl
12:17 PM

I am sorry if I have been gone too long . I am sorry but I need time . I am sorry that I have neglected you . I am sorry I have been a bad friend to you . I am sorry for running & hiding from you . I am sorry for being naive . I am sorry for believing in you again , stupid of me . I am sorry , I am just a human being . Not near perfect just average ; Beautifully Imperfect ? (:
I know I can't run from you FOREVER , I know god will make me bump into you somehow . Duhhhh -_- . Life is fair enough . Now I am just enjoying my life before I bump into you , from there onwards ; only god knows what really is going through in my mind.

It's time to be gone again right dude ? (:
bye people !

Sunflowy Girl
11:17 AM

She says she’s okay, but she’s going insane.
She says she feels good, but she’s going through a lot of pain.
She says its nothing, but it’s really everything.
She says she’s fine, but she’s really not.

&
ohh boy you did make her feel a lot better tonight by letting her be what she wants to be just for a few minutes (:

Thank you beautiful soul for tonight , Thank you friends who remember me & to the one that most unexpected long friend out of the blue appear & said " Hi " to me at msn (:
I am looking forward to chat with you again , the last time I saw you was new year huh ? :p

Hopefully , tomorrow will be a better day ....

Sunflowy Girl
10:51 AM

Baby , cause of you I am still alive & strong .
Baby , you make me what I am today .
Baby , I love you .
Baby , ohh you're my darling baby eh ? meh sini meh :p
this is for you my baby 24/7 .

If it's a positive , I will be the one who faint not dad .
the age gap sucks okay :( . CONFUSED .
Dina love knows how to walked already . woohoo & syaidi is still having the boncit perut .
I still remember the first time you touched them :) * winkwink *

Sunflowy Girl
12:25 PM

I wanted to confront & talk to you but I just don't know how to start . It's crazy to say this ; I miss you confronting me like how a big sis would do to her a little sis . Sometimes I wonder have you ever wonder about me ? I really hate this part right here . I swear I miss you , I really do . When I re-read all your old posts in your blog , I cried , I laughed today , tonight . I miss you ! I don't have any grudges towards you , I just NEED you my dear everything . I miss giving you surprises , I miss touching & squeezing your drumsticks .

Remember all this ;
- the date / the place / the time & esp the one & only witness .
- when you fell inside the double - decker bus & we all were stunned .
- when you helped me for the very first time to do my FIRST BLOG EVER .
- when you helped me to put songs inside my mp3 & yeah you upload for me a " chinese nak mati song " huh ?
- when I was leg-less , you & her are my legs . Pushing me around patiently :)
- when I went to a wedding with you for the very first time .

The bottom line is ; I have gone through a lot with you & you're important to me no matter what . You can hate me all you want but I will still want , need & love you !
& I don't want any FIRE between us anymore . I want us to be lovely dovey again .
it's time to do some private talking .

I MISS YOU

Sunflowy Girl
11:41 AM