Sorry ; for getting mad at you w/o telling you what you've done wrong . Simply said , it was not okay at all . NOT at all . Firstly is about the text replied , I was a little bit disappointed . But in the end I have to understand ; why , what & this . Secondly is about " US " . We have drifted apart . Did you realize that ? I admit I have been busy with work like almost everyday . It's my fault for not finding time ... Seriously I sucks at that . I sucks at finding time for others anymore cause I, myself need time on my own . to do what ? simple as : RECOVER . I know you've been wondering , why I need to recover so badly right ? Cause I was stabbed at the chest really deep down that the scar is not easy to heal with anything or anyone but just myself :) Whatever it is , I feel so bad . Real bad that I keep thinking about you every seconds . I never feel this way before towards you , this was my very first time . I feel bad for not finding time for you & I am sorry at times I did make up excuses just not to see you ... cause I don't know , I don't know until yesterday I realized that you're the one I needed the most when I am feeling happy,hyper & sad .
Beautiful Soul ; you are far too good for me . You are may not be perfect in other people eyes but to me you're perfect . Seriously , I am v thankful to you . Somehow you have changed me , you have teach me a lot , you told me stuff that I never knew before . You lead me out from the darkness when I have lost my way . You were there 24/7 , putting your mobile phone under your pillow , fear that I might call you in the middle of the night crying of those nightmares. You were there for me shines or rains , when there's no moon & sparkling stars . Well , I am just scared . I am scared if you hurt me ... I am just so scared that at times I just wanna avoid you . I am sorry for that .
I know you hate to see us being & acting like strangers , so do I . Hopefully , tomorrow things will be better for us . I miss you so much only Allah knows how I am feeling right now ..
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I can't believe this , I cried for you for the second time cause I thought I have lost you like the first time . I know it sound so pathetic . but it's real ...
- Goodnight -
Sunflowy Girl
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