Sunflowy Girl
12:45 PM

HE WILL ALWAYS BE MY FAV NEPHEW (:

SHE IS MY FAV SEPET (:

HE IS MY TEMBAM (:

I have been quite busy lately with ___________ . HAHAHA ! And of course I requested 3 days off from work this week cause I just feel like it's time to take a break . And so last wednesday I went to aunty's crib. I miss her cooking the most especially Cik kiah , 2nd place would be Mak Mah & then Ibu Ros. And so I spend my wednesday night by playing monopoly deal with beloved zhuzy . First timer play like a PRO , 2nd round I lose. HAHAHA ! 3rd round I WON . I think we took turns to win the games . Afterwards zhuzy paitao me & let me listened to MJ12 alone for a few minutes until I called Buddy to accompany me on the phone .

So the next morning I woke up & immediately saw my cousin abang iman reading the newspaper . And of course I decided to disturb him with my ( MUKA BUSUK , MULUT BAU ) . HAHAHA funny ! (: I spend my afternoon & evening with my 3R's the most . LENTIK , SEPET & TEMBAM . It's my first time hearing rusyaidi calling me Aunty ina , usually he would called me INA here & there only -.- . Rusydina is very cute little big sister , who love to brighten my day with her hehe , haha & huhu . She amazed me cause she love to laughed a lot . Especially rusydan my Favorite Chubby Cheek !!! He had grown bigger , fatter , chubby after 2 months of not meeting him . I feel so happy when I saw him & I am proud of myself cause I managed to carried him even though his neck still lembek & most importantly he fall asleep in my arms .

I AM OVER THE MOON WHEN I MET MY ADORABLE 3R's !

Only Allah know what I really feel inside that point of time (;

I spend my thursday night at Nab Crib & then Slept at Nad Crib . Went to Nab Crib & talked here & there . And again , BABIES really make me SMILE (: . Alif , nadrah nephew was there too . hehe ! It's been so long since I last saw him & now he know how to speak very well . It's been a great night & memorable one too . Sleeping with Best Friends really make me smile even though I didn't show it . I must admit every time when we part , I can't wait for another outing together. ~ I LOVE THEM ~

Sunflowy Girl
12:05 PM

And of course she is the person I love most after Allah .

Sunflowy Girl
11:43 AM

And tonight will be one of the nights , I go to sleep smiling widely cause of you :D

Always remember that you're extraordinary to me .

Love you ipah !

( this picture was when I am so tembam lorh , ewww I am so gemok. And you with your short hair . )

*PARANOID ALERT*

Sunflowy Girl
12:07 PM

Few days had passed , I feel like it's been a long time since I last update my blog . And so here I am typing away with music on , feeling happy out of a sudden . It seems like everything is almost perfect for now . So lately , I have been busy working , nothing new by the way .

It's been a hell yeah crazy week as kak dayah took 6 days off from work , so when I reached home I settled down quickly & headed to bed as early as I can & woke up the next day just to went to work . Even on my off days I need to rush to meet my girls cause .... it's one of my best friends birthday :D

So lately , everything is going alright now . As for friendship , I had no more comments anymore . But I thanked allah as always cause no matter what allah will always answered my prayers when it comes to FRIENDSHIP with my girls . And seriously I can't wait to really surprise someone . It's been a long time since I & her go out dating , just the two of us . I do miss that really . But I have a problem & only she knows . HAHAHA ! we're in the same boat huh ? ;)

As for work ; There will always be so many reasons I have to give over here but most importantly , I really need to go . Who cares , I have done it before & now this will be my & final time I really go . I do feel happy if I really quit FA but I will miss FA esp my awesome bunch of friends at 313 , Paragon & TM . But for future sake , I seriously need to say bye-bye !

Sunflowy Girl
10:28 AM

Through thick and thin ,

rich and poor , laughter & tear , true friends is always there & never leave .

From 5 down to 3 . THREESOME♡♡

Sunflowy Girl
11:08 AM

I know I keep saying " thank you " to you & at times buddy I think you can't stand me saying thank you so many times . Sorry but I am just being me . Again let me state over here .

It's a pleasure knowing & meeting each of your brothers & friends . Of course I can't deny the fact that I will feel shy but you know me somehow I will get myself talking to them after all this is SAB . HAHAHA ! A friendly girl ;)

It has been a great moments spend together , day & night with them at the chalet . Seeing them crying their lungs out really did upset me somehow deep down my heart . I can't imagine myself crying for you if you have to go for NS . I bet I will cry 10 times more than how khairiya cried for khairi .Hearing their jokes really made me laughed esp yoga , seeing them acting so stress-free running about early in the morning really do cheered me up .

The bond between you & your brothers really " wow " me . Even though you are mad at them cause every time you cleaned up the mess , they mess it all over again . But I know you , you still care & treasure them to bits no matter what . And you're not that type of irresponsible & bad person . You're a kind-hearted person & a very responsible guy & understanding . I am not saying this cause of that you're my lover or my buddy but I am saying it as an individual about what I really think about you .

So again , Thank you for everything buddy . For giving me a chance to interact with all of your friends . They've been nice to me like seriously . They even thanked me for cleaning up the mess too. They're good friends (:

Sunflowy Girl
8:02 AM

I have a secret , everyone has many secrets including me . It's all up to you wether you wanna be open to someone & tell what is your deepest secret in life . But again at times it's better to left it untold , let it just be between you & god . Lately I keep hearing more truth facts from someone , it hurt me a lot . I have tried to control my emotions but its useless , the emotions get controlled of me yesterday . I cried for them , I cried hard . I miss them but it's useless now . It seems like everything I do to save it from falling apart is useless . I know I have tried my best in this 7 years but at the second thought I think I didn't . I keep asking myself why , why & why is this happening now ? Why must it be now ? I know all the facts is true but I still somehow can't accept the fact like she does . Why can't the 3 of them let bygones be bygones ? like she . She really wanted to change for the better , for the friendship . I can see & sense it but why can't they give a freaking chance ?! Why myst there be EGO again ? Seriously , I don't understand why now must this happened to us , wait to you & her & her only . GRUDGES WON'T BRING YOU NOWHERE ! I still love you 4 the same . Frankly speaking , where's your freaking guts to solve this matter ? I am out .

THINK . Till when I am gonna be here always solving this problems in this friendship . Till when? I can't be here forever , I will die one day but I don't know when . Maybe until I really forgive that particular someone . But even if I die one day , my soul won't rest in peace knowing that my friends will go on with their separate ways . Ya allah , it really hurt me . I know you all are hurt too but why can't each of you come forward & tell each other ? Come on , life is short . Please don't waste your time by holding grudges deep down your heart .

I am not saying here that I am a perfect best friend . I had made mistakes too , that sometimes really let you girls down . But never ever I let a problem leave unsettle in this friendship . I will always try , give & do my never ending best to tighten up this friendship . At times I neglected you all due to my work & busy life . But here I am trying to change for the better but the 2 of you ? And sometimes when some outings is cancelled due to I can't make it cause my family members didn't allowed me to go & fear of my safety ; I am sorry girls . And thank you for your understanding . I appreciate it a lot . Whenever we fight or have some misunderstandings between all of us , it really break my heart into bazillion pieces & affected me a lot . I am just so disappointed when I get to know that all this while one of you were just staying in this friendship cause of me & my happiness . Please girls , this is not the end ....

Sunflowy Girl
6:49 AM