Beautifully Imperfect Sunflower

Love is everything . But let me tell you something , when you're in love with someone be it man/women when they make you happy is like you're over the rainbow but if they make you sad really bad , till you lose your inner-soul , till you lose your trust in them .... it feels like everything that you have in life it's totally gone .

Well , I had been hurt so bad . You may not know how bad . Even if I tell you how bad it is , you'll never really understand & feel the same like I do . NEVER .

And so I have decided the moment you left me alone to survive the journey on my own , I told myself each & everyday I won't let any other guys or man destroy my everything ever again .

And even if I really love that person , I'll let go if the love is not true .

I'll do anything , learn anything to be a good muslimah .

And if we're meant to be , then that's it .

~ Jodoh di tangan Allah ~

Sunflowy Girl
3:56 AM

All that a girl need is a MAN .

Just one guy , who would be man enough to prove to her that not all men are the same .

~ fyna ~

Sunflowy Girl
5:27 AM

Remember this ? I still remember watching this for few times with zanna if I am not wrong at uncle's place . I cried every time watching this . And of course I still remember watching this with you . HAHAHA !

" Kita merancang tapi Allah yang menentukan semuanya "

Sunflowy Girl
10:26 AM

" Biar orang buat kita , jangan kita buat orang . Dan sentiasa percaya kepada Allah s.w.t "

I have been pushing myself too hard at work. I didn't even notice it till last friday my body felt so weak , my face turned pale , my eyes was red & watery , keep coughing till I scare some " P " around me , flu getting bad to worst . And yet I was stubborn always think about others first than myself at work . (sorry , i am just being me) . I really didn't want to go home even when they all told me so especially " kak ani " . She really nagged & nagged at me . But I still stayed on till 11 am I decided to took my leave & went home .

Maybe just maybe I had been helping too many people at work at one go till I forgotten about my own health , that my body also need plenty of rest . The weird part is while I was on the way out from my work place P kept asking me questions & I can't possibly turn them down right ? (:

I am still sick . Fever has gone but flu & cough have not . But I am still going to work on MONDAY , I wanna put smiles on others face on monday morning with my SMILE even though if I am not feeling well .

Slowly , surely I am gonna get this right on monday , that everything will go smoothly . That I am just not a girl but soon to be a grown up (:

When I work I tend to be not so serious , what I meant is I am never selfish of teaching others & sharing my knowledge & jokes at work . That I tend to smiled & laughed even though I am doing my work .If you're too serious about work w/o having a smile on your face , what's' the point ? Work gonna be boring I tell you ! I discover something new about myself , that I am not afraid in facing difficult "customers" face to face or even on the phone . Weird part is that I always had this cheerful high pitch tone in me whenever I say " good morning , take care " as I welcome them or bid goodbye . HAHAHA! And seriously , I loving my job each & everyday ! Sometimes my buddies would close their ears & looked at me " why you so hyper huh everyday , laugh & laugh ? "

Hello , reality check please . I am just human being . I shed tears too but this time round I have learnt not to cry in front of others except my loved ones . HAHAHA!

K I am off to sleep early tonight , assalamualaikum (:

Sunflowy Girl
9:45 AM

BABIES MAKE YOU HAPPY RIGHT ? ^.^

So this picture is for you , ash ke ash .

Thank you for accompanying me took the cake , ate lunch with me & always send me home to the door . Hees ! Just now was fun playing catching with you for a few minutes before you headed home . HAHAHA let's do it again . Seeya soon ! (:

By the way , I'm the moon . Please . HAH

Sunflowy Girl
8:55 AM

I LOVE YOU , IBU (:

Sunflowy Girl
8:53 AM

Yang dicari; walau bukan putera raja, biarlah putera agama. Yang diimpi, biarlah tak punya rupa, asal sedap dipandang mata. Yang dinilai, bukan sempurna sifat jasmani, asalkan sihat rohani dan hati. Yang diharap, bukan jihad pada semangat, asal perjuangannya ada matlamat. Yang datang, tak perlu rijal yang gemilang, kerana diri ini serikandi dengan silam yang kelam. Yang dinanti, bukan lamaran dengan permata, cukuplah akad dan janji setia. Dan yg akan terjadi, andai tak sama dgn kehendak hati, insyaAllah ku redha ketetapan Ilahi.

Sunflowy Girl
10:42 AM

I may not know who you are but definitely somehow you've changed me & my point of views in everything daily w/o fail . You made me see that there's more good facts about being a MUSLIMAH & having ISLAM as your religion . When I was at the verge of giving up you made me believe that I should not give up in myself & life cause Allah never once give up in me & always never stop giving me chances . I hope you know that you're my everyday inspirations & idol (:

May allah bless you , friend .

Sunflowy Girl
10:18 AM

People come , people go ; what I mean is that sometimes you've to learn to let go some people in your life if you think they're not worth your time , love , care & concern . Letting go does not mean you totally shut them out from your life . Sometimes it's about you giving up on them cause all this while you're with them all you could feel is tiredness . Cause all this while you're the only one who trying your best to communicate & wanting to have bonding sessions with them but in the end they themselves didn't do their part. So you choose to let go secretly without them notice. And of course in the other hand letting go does not mean you totally give up on them but again secretly you still care , love & wanting them in your life w/o them knowing. ( I am not referring to anyone , well I am just saying ) PEACE !

Never Judge the book by it's cover ; It's about my new friends that I had made along the journey in my new work .... wait , let's just say " MY NEW CAREER " (:

I made a lot of new friends & mostly it's malays . But tell you what , I am addicted to chinese friends already . But it does not mean that I leave behind all my malays friends right ? I am amazed that I actually can clicked very well with my chinese friends . They entertained my craps like how the malays friends does it . One of my fav chinese friend is " Pei Yi " aka ChatterBox like me ! And not to be forgotten my fav malays friends that's " Leena & Liza " aka as my 2L's . ohhh one more fav friend she came from Filipino ! Her name is " Irene " aka my Kak Irene , she's a mom by the way but yet she's COOL !

On top of that I am the YOUNGEST among my batch of new friends & class too . HAHAHA !

Not cool okay cause why ? All eyes on me ! Cause I am the youngest so their expectations of me is HIGH . And I seriously don't like it . " ohh you're young so you can absorb that well & fast right ? " I don't like it when people think like that of me . For your info , I am a slow learner . But I can be a good worker once I master all the things that well (; Seriously , practice make it perfect . I always believe in that . Plus we also need time to master all that steps . And so they thought they can bully me just like that ?? HAHA ! sorry you gonna mess with the wrong person actually . I may look blur , I may be a slow learner but never ever once you underestimate me cause I am not gonna show you my angry sides just yet . My patience is higher than you expected it to be . I may not be clever as the rest but my passion in my work light up everything (:

And sometimes I don't like to be stuck in the middle again . I thought I would not be stuck in that kind of situation with my new friends . But I think it's fated to always be the " MIDDLE PERSON" . They choose to confide in me & share stories with me . I have two groups of malay friends , all of them is from Polytechnic . And all are in their Twenties . Except me (; It's hard when the both group are nice towards me but when they interact with each other it's like totally different atmosphere . Krik Krik -.-

Whatever it is , May Allah Bless all of them & Open their Eyes & Heart .

Sunflowy Girl
9:54 AM