Hey Blog , I am back . What if I didn't come back & never update this blog of mine ? it'll be so dead. To tell the truth I miss blogging . But I don't miss my laptop like how my brother miss it even though the laptop belong to me.So basically , things changed a lot . Especially me . It took me a lot of courage to type all of this tonight & today . I just don't why but I feel it's time to share something today ;)

I changed . A lot , I can't deny the fact. I admit last time I used to skipped my prayers & always delayed my prayers . And somehow I forget about my late grandma "pesanan". But slowly surely I found myself back w/o no one help but only Allah & Signs.I even try to help others to change indirectly , you see I don't wish to offend anyone. Seriously I got no time to make enemies anymore . You see , I am not near perfect at all . But at least I am trying to change.

I am trying my very best to be in the right path & never be apart from Allah . I don't expect everyone to accept my changes , I don't expect them to stop talking about me behind my back(like seriously we're normal human beings & we can't stop talking behind others back) but seriously try not to do that at all & change , I don't expect them not to laugh at me when they see me in hijab cause I was once a hijab girl & out of a sudden I took it off . I've learnt not to bother so much what other people might say or think about me , what matter most that I change for the sake of Allah & it's time to repent . Who knows when will i die ? And I fear death & Allah .

My time has come. I am blessed & tell you something I am lucky to noticed a lot of signals from Allah. At first it was hard but slowly I'll get use to it. This time I am wearing hijab not to impress anyone or for fashion sake or worst cause I wanna look pretty & umm like some people says

I am a hijab girl because ; I fear Allah s.w.t & death .

It's time to repent & knock some senses in me.

I want to enter paradise not hell .

I don't want other guys to gaze at me anymore nor look at my long , soft & silky hair.

I don't want to be a perfect Muslimah but a better & good Muslimah .

And syukur alhamdullilah my mom respect my decision & gave me her blessings . Ameen .

And to anyone who I did offend before , I am sorry for my actions & words . Forgive me .

May Allah bless all of you & open your heart like how Allah done to me .

Sunflowy Girl
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