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95 days more to go . All want to do is to cherish every moments with you & to spend more time with you no matter how tired & stress I'll be . I'll sacrifice & hide all my tiredness away from you . :) I promise not to shed a single tear when the day comes . I know I am emotional person but for you I will show you those smiles I had on my face since the day 1 we known each other . I will go "hehe , haha & huhu " for you . As much as I am feeling nervous for you & scared at the same time , I just want to wish you all the best for your future . I'll be here always & I won't go anywhere even out from the country . I'll wait for you , yes I will . Ummi as my witness , Allah too .
Finally after 3 years , I got to meet some of your family members . It took me a lot of courage to shaked hands with them . And I'll never forget your big brother jokingly said " INTRUDER " just came & everyone was like looking at me . At that point of time only Allah knows what I am feeling , like feeling attacked eh. Shy of course but at the same time I am grateful cause Allah gave me the chance to met some of your family members .
InsyaAllah kalau ada jodoh tak kemana . Kita hanya boleh berdoa dan sentiasa berdoa agar Allah tunaikan permintaan kami berdua . May allah bless our friendship & guide us always . :)
Sunflowy Girl
9:14 AM
I am what I am today because of you , family & allah ;)
And also good close friends & my girls .
Sunflowy Girl
11:09 PM
Right now , I am following the flow . My passion in F&B will never fade :)
What important is ; Work is work . Friendship/Relationship I'll put aside when I am on duty . And when they do something I'll correct them sincerely & in good manners . Cause I know how it felt to be treated badly . And guys always remember if I correct you it's because I still cares & not because I am showing off my position . I don't care about my position because this is just temporary .
If you really know me well , you should realize up till today I never admit that I am perfect in my position .
I never admit that my designs on the cakes is nice & when people said my designs is beautiful ..... I would just smile & sometimes ignore it . Cause I always believe I am beautifully imperfect in my own ways .
Have a good day everyone !
Sunflowy Girl
11:00 PM
Day by day I keep reminding myself to be good , to be better in what I do , what I say & write , to be the person that no one expect that I can be. I have plans about my future , about what I want to do next but all I can say is I maybe the planner of my life but Allah is always there to make the final decisions for me . The changes I making lately may hurt my friends feelings or anyone else but I really felt that I need to change for people to really appreciate me while I am still here . Like seriously .
Lately I found myself so angry/rude towards some people who had been picking on me early in the morning & assuming things that I never do or worst say . Can you imagine standing up for yourself (without no one help?) with a person in their early 30's ? It was so stressful & even if I told & shared stories with him at the end of the day I will be one standing up for myself . And not even my mom or Allah can help me in this . To make The right choice .
The first time when she said something rude to me in front of my part-timers , I kept my mouth shut & told myself to be strong & not to fight back . And respect .
The list goes on & on , she kept hurting me with her harsh words & even her own best friend can't offer help with her vicious mouth. Until one fine day early in the morning she really go beyond my line to test my patience , then I realized it's time to STAND UP for myself & show her & the rest what I can be when I am angry . At that point of time , I am really proud of myself for being able to typed the message rudely & with common sense of course towards her . She's just too much & immature I must say to joked about something serious . For god sake , I have changed to be more serious & firm in my work & life. Take that . :)
Sadly , she didn't stop there yet after 3 days had passed she assumed me of interfering in some people arguments without getting the facts right . Childish much I must say . Cause I really got the facts right and she is just another busybody person herself . I merely gave my true & honest opinions towards a friend when she told me her side of her story. And she's unhappy . And the next thing I know I received a rude text from her & again it's in the morning. That point of time , I really can't take it and so I vented it all out towards her regardless of her position( I don't give a damn ! ) , I really showed her what I can do & even if she have back up ....... who is she anyway ? What I know she's not a god & I am not afraid of her .
She apologized but only god knows wether she is sincere about that & wanting to change in her attitude & in her bluntly words that she always used to others. ( Must always think on the bright side eh :) ) All I can say now , I can never be the old sabrina that I used to be . Now , I can stand up for myself & more firm & I must thank my mom for what I am today .
And even if I quit I won't lose anything cause they are the one who suffer cause they have lost my twin & if my turn comes ...... They're ones who suffer big losses in their company because we've a great passion in baking , drawing & we love art . And we're talented & I believe I can go far to achieve greater things in life.
May god bless you all of you :)
Sunflowy Girl
10:53 PM
