Beautifully Imperfect Sunflower

" We can live by choice but not by chance "
Ive a choice to CONFIDE in whoever I want so do you . & thank you friend for staying up late just to knock some sense into me & make me feel better . Thank you a million times ! Finally, I made the right choice to confide in you. I know you'll be there for me 24/7 , how I wish hasdad is here to advice me , laugh with me & even better bully me. Brother , I miss you man ! I gonna make a change , I wanna hang out with you & him often . you both maybe naggy at times but I know you both mean good & just want the best for me . Im sorry brother vava , Ive let you down BIG TIME . I want KUTI-KUTI VAVA FAMILY BACK !
* hasdad.sabrina.ayie.sakinah *

GIRLS , IMISSYOU ALOT !

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Sunflowy Girl
9:02 PM

( OUR FAMILY POTRAIT )

Nur is our mom , the rest is her childrens :D

:) you left me alone , to do some soul searching . Finally I found myself , Im not faking it . & I enjoyed being alone today for hours . wee (!) I wrote you a letter , not a love letter but full of words ... new composition & I know you're speechless after reading it . I kept pestering you for comments all you could say is " ILOVEYOU " . alamak that one I know 24/7 . haha thank you anyway . I know you LOVE it when I go hyper & I was so deep in LOVE with myself too . I felt so happy , it's been awhile Im not hyper like that . I really had fun bullying you , can I have more of it ? + I really love disturbing random people. ohh its remind me of the guy who wore short & have hairless leg . I shouted " HEY SEXY ! " & he turned .. hahah I had so MUCH FUN (!) ohh yeah the story I told you about some random mats came up to me asking for my number & I told them I was engaged , showed the ring & they just smiled & walk away . FUNNY &I AM SO MEAN (!) Thank you luv , hope to see you again (!)

Nadrah , thank you for listening to my problems . Thank you for understanding me . Thank you for the "gossips" we had at msn about BGR . Thank you for a million times (!) Btw , our day is coming but Im "pokai" right now . how leh ? let me think ...

& I can't wait to celebrate wawa b'day this sunday . I can't wait to swim in the beach , can't wait to do a lot of stuff with my GIRLFRIENDS :D

* CONVERSATION WITH MOM&SISTER LOVE*

haha , mak aku kata aku tak ada girlfriends lain asyik-asyik ni empat ekor (!)

eh check luh if you 4 have tails behind . haha(!)

I said : Biarkan uhh , kita jiwa 4 indians & 1 cinanoneh yer keturunan tau. Jangan main-main.

Perempuan laintak bloeh ganti dia orang okay makcik ? they are my bestest lesbian girlfriends !

( she ketuk my head with newspaper) -_- .

I said : Jadi lesbian best perh . hahaha boleh kisskiss & touchtouch tak haram.

Mom said : She told my dad & his replied was " GILA , nak jadi lesbian buat perh ? "

( his reaction is so boring luh , tak ada feeling betul ! )

I said : No luh siapa yang nak jadi lesbian , kita 5 semua STRAIGHT semua dah berpunya & our boyfriends all handsome&smart .

she said : yer luh macam si ipin tu eh laki kau ?

I said : at least laki aku handsome&smart . But yours handsome&TUA :p haha !

her last replied was : WHATEVER (!)

& MOM , I REALLY LOVE YOU (!)

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Sunflowy Girl
10:20 PM

it's over , I have nothing to say but feeling blue . I wanna be there when you need someone , so I promise myself that tonight Im gonna make your night a good night ^_^ . If you're reading this friend : last long with your new one , all the best in your relationship & life . I make a promise not to be in your life anymore . Take care , I have to go . Im sorry it's your turn to really feel

"True Love " . As for now , life is getting complicated each day but my girlfriends always make my day . Thank you girls (!)

ps;It's the forth of november , yet there's nothing to see .

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Sunflowy Girl
4:00 AM

When you asked me how's life , I send you a smile cause life is bittersweet for now .

Im blessed ^_^ , how about you ?

you said ; life is bittersweet too . but it'll be sweeter if you willing to be there for me 24/7 as a friend .

I send you a smile again & you send me a smile too

now we are friends till now

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Sunflowy Girl
8:04 PM

Today I had fun laughing & talking about the memories of secondary school life with you 3 :)

you 3 are the best (!) I can't wait for tomorrow you know why . I shall not say it out . TOP SECRET FOR NOW ^_^ . I can't wait to go home tomorrow as mom will be at home & she will cook for dinner for the family . If only you don't have to work , I bet I'll go home straight right after school . My mom is one in a million , she's like my sister & I love her even though at times she is being " whatever " & she pissed me off .

Don't take advantage of me , cause Im trying to be the best that I can be for my sake & you . Look who is taking who for granted ?

Labels: Patience have its own limits.

Sunflowy Girl
6:58 PM

you've forgotten one thing . not the diary , but something that I always looking forward to see & read it once every month . Always written on the 1st . I know you want the diary back , too bad I won't give it to you till I think you deserve to read it ^_^ . wait , you've forgotten another thing : PICTURES OF ME & YOU (!) tyvm much mister toot & i am not that 100% stalker fyi (!)

you're the stalker of my msn account & i am too in your fb (!)
Mr.Stalker & Mrs.Stalker , Cool .

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Sunflowy Girl
10:24 AM

o1/11/2009
yesterday was great , I enjoyed watching MJ . His dance moves always make my heart smiling. I kept laughing to myself & love can be quite annoying kept asking why I laughed . duhh it's funny when he danced & touched his " whatever " in front . hahahaha (!) Thought he forgotten about it , but he did not . That's great (!). No surprise or anything but just you to me , me to you . This love is priceless so does you luv . I am happy that I get to see him today still i miss you . you're near , yes I can feel you but yet you're far , far from .... *fill in the blank* .
A conversation we had just now :

he said ; will you still love me ?
she said ; yes , I'll always love you no matter what.
he said ; you sure ? how you know ?
she said ; aluh , I always love you no matter what . No matter how much nonsense you've given to me . Even though you always rather let me talk to the walls than let your voice put me to sleep , I still love you .
I hanged up cause he fall asleep , as usual ( urgh irratating toot ) but his last words for me is :
I . LOVE . YOU .

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Sunflowy Girl
9:57 AM