every night is the same drama . but now the drama is getting worst . I want to go through with this but I don't for how long can I endure with this pain. it really hurts , I can't even sleep well . when I wake up in the morning , ish panda eyes (!) its been almost 4days . gosh tired & exhausted . But like finally I wanna put it to a rest so I said : I DON'T CARE (!) Whatever it is do what you wanna do . If you think im selfish & unreasonable , whatever okay . say what you want to say . CRAPS (!) I am not heartless , I don't wish to see ya sad , so if that make you happy do what you think is good for you . I'll respect your decision & be there for you . Thanks for giving me a chance , I know you'll never stop giving me chances . Thank you very much :) . I won't say anything anymore &
rakan baru thanks for the message ... it really means alot to me . Im truly sorry . I created the mess but now I want to clean it up . still I don't think it's too late boy .... so boy KEEP TRYING (!) my rakan baru is your only best friend . your best friend has only you to confide in .
I finally understand everything ..I am sorry once again for the mess that I created . & I have NEVER EVER want to hate you & I don't even hate you now . After all loving & accepting someone sincerely is the best feeling ever (!) (: I really wanna share my joy with my closet friends, but not now . ada crisis , hahaha (!) so I guess my rakan baru , I wanna share my joy with you .
Would you forgive me for the mistakes I have done & give me a chance (?)ps; I just accept someone willingly & sincerely like 4days ago . At first its kinda hard but I tried my very best to learn to accept it . In the end , I did it(!) At first im scared but when I know you were there for me like FE&E I felt better . MUCH BETTER that makes me so overjoyed (!) thank you love for standing by me , thank you my rakan baru for sharing the j0y with us . "REZEKI" daripada allah , SYUKUR ALHAMDULLILAH (!) Labels: Im sorry :(
Sunflowy Girl
4:59 PM
shit happened again . there's so many lies . white lies . to hell luh lies (!)
helped a friend in the end , she's in trouble . what's the use of being good ? what's the use of having a good intentions , heart , soul & bloody hell being a good person or either friend ? Many things happend lately & it's all about : FRIENDSHIP or TRUE FRIENDSHIP . Or just HI-BYE FRIENDS. Having a commit suicide friend is troblesome , helping her is even worst luh. speechless - so right now I don't give a damn anymore you bitch/jerk/stupid fool (!) . It's all because of you :( . Thought I would give up on you but I din't manage to so I just stay & watch you fall slowly . It's not worth it being good to you stupid fool (!) . It's a big mistake ever to be good to you(!) to be so naive . argh (!) .
When I need you , are you there for me ? or are you busy attending to your own life & forget me ? Did I ever say I give up on you eventho you sucks sometimes ? Listen here , I'll never give up on any of my friends esp 4-SOME GF'S ^_^ . NEVER EVER , I REPEAT NEVER EVER CAUSE IM A TRUE FRIEND .
A true friend stay with you thru up & downs , to be there 24/7 , scold you when you did something wrong , slap your face for valid reasons not for fun & most importanly be there for you thru out your life until your last breath . Eventhough you say you don't care or worry , I know deep down your heart you care (!) & even if you don't care about me I don't give a damn & still care about you (!) & forever love you ....
Please girls we do need to talk . A serious talk . Not satisfied or unhappy : SPEAK UP .
sit & talk , by ignoring or even avoiding the issues there's no ending for this misery.
& girl thanks for telling me I din't change expect staying out late to help a bitch/jerk .I appreaciate it alot . Your not that close to me but you say I din't change :) thanks so much .
& whatever it is I din't even or ever give up on you even if one day you want more of life I won't give up on you . I PROMISE ~
ps; IM SORRY , ILOVEYOU SO MUCH BFF (!) I am just sad when I know you would give up on me sooner or later cause a true friend would never do that .
Labels: Im sorry :(
Sunflowy Girl
6:41 AM
